Relationships

So my past relationships were not that good at all. At first they seemed good. Some were really nice and some really sucked. In some of my past relationships my girlfriends did not respect me at all and they were using me. I have had 6 relationships since I was in 6th grade. The longest one I had lasted 6 months and that relationship was really good but after like the 5 month I could tell that she wasn't that interested in me at all. She was just using me after that and she wouldn't comfort me when I was in pain. There were times when I was in really bad pain and none of my past girlfriends wood comfort me. After my last relationship I didn't want to date just because I felt like I would never find my special someone. So I spent 3-4 years being single it was nice at times but most of the time it sucked. Because I had no one to share my day with besides my family. When I was working at radio shack I thought to myself and said that I didn't have time for a girlfriend. But when I got fired from my job I really started thinking about dating again. So after I got fired God really put it on my heart to go and find a girl to date. So I went on to christian mingle and paid the $30, after I paid it the next day I went on and saw I ever beautiful young women. So after I saw the picture God was saying to me Grant this is the girl I want you to be with. So after that I started talking to her and we talked for like over 2 hours and in the 2 hours I asked her out on a date. She said yes and we decided that Friday would be our first date. When I went to go pick up Amanda I was nervous but when I got out of the car and rang the door bell and I saw her I wasn't nervous anymore. It was like God was there with me and took my nervousness away. When I first looked at her I was like wow she is really gorgeous I was really excited that God got us together. On our first date we decided that we would start dating. So after our first date I was going to drop her off when I asked if I could come to her house and she said yes. After that moment I knew that we would be together. Then like not even 2 weeks later I asked her to marry me and she said yes. I just really can't say how excited I am that I decided to start looking again and just having my trust in God. So know it has been almost a month and I have to say that I am the happiest guy in the world I love Amanda so much. She is truly a blessing to me just because she is God driven and that is really hard to find in women now days. I really can't wait to marry her she is everything I wanted in a women we also have alot in common which is really awesome. My entire family likes her to which to me is such a plus. Even when I am away from her I think of her everyday and there are days when I will just tear up thinking about her. She is so loving and caring it is such a blessing since I am in pain a lot she really wants it to get better. She also listens when no other girl has done that for me. When I am crying she comforts me and wants to make me feel better. I never had a girlfriend do that for me. God really does give us a second chance when we do screw up I feel new again. I also feel like a virgin again even tough I did have sex before I was married. It is so nice that Amanda forgives me of that and what I have done in the past and I do forgive her of what she has done in the past to. I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with her.