Experiencing God

God is so amazing. When I was addicted to porn I felt like God was trying to pull me back but the devil had a stronger grip. I could tell God was telling me to come back but I didn't care at all. There were times where It felt like God was there even when I was looking at porn. Even though I grew up in a Christian home I really didn't believe in God because I thought that he would never forgive me of what I had done. When my grandma passes away that's when God put it on my heart to start thinking about where I was with him. When I got fired from my job I just realized that like a job you could be gone the next day. I wanted to give my life to God because I wanted to know if I were to die tomorrow that I would be in heaven. Then after I lost my job I prayed and prayed that I would find my special some one. A week after I received God I went on christian mingle and paid $30 to find some one. A day after I did that I saw a profile that when I saw it I had to talk to her. After that night if talking we set a date to go out. After that date we decided to start dating. Then a week after that I asked her to marry me. When we where dating God put it on my mind to ask Amanda to marry. So I did ask Amanda and she said yes. God Is so amazing he had this in his mind and told me that this was my last relationship. I give her the love she never had and she does the same for me. She is such a blessing to me. She is so awesome and shows me how special I am to her and I do the same to her. I just love Amanda so much that I can't wait to marry her.